i don't fucking care...

i know you say you don't want to anger me,
or upset me.

but, the fact of the matter is...
you just don't understand.

You don't get what i feel,
or know how i feel.
You honestly don't.

I know i'm never truely in love,
but there is one person i honestly understand that it is possible its love,
even though he's miles away right now...
I've known him, and i've been close to him for 5 years.
My feelings for him are different.
indescribeable.

Who are you to tell me i'm "searching" to hard.
You may know me,
but you don't know how i feel...

i understand you worry,
but to be blatinly honest,
its my life,
i know what i'm doing,
i'm just like my mother,
and we are both Strong, Whole hearted people.
Who have the willpower, and heart to press on.
We aren't hurt too easily...

i know i am, but i get over it fast,
maybe to fast,
but thats just who i am.

Besides, i don't understand how you can say all this,
when half the time, your always with "her".
Its not like you TRY to hang out with me anymore.
Your to busy with her.


I feel like you never have time to spend with me...
in all honesty,
i can't take this shit.


You say we are already not on good terms... why is that.
I've never done SHIT to her.
WTF!
ha.

And to say i was all over her boyfriend,
when in reality thats not the case at all.
Neither of you were there.
And neither of you know what really went on.
And i know that her boyfriend and his bestfriend decide they are gonna make up
a bunch of bullshit about me...
And guess what... i don't fucking care anymore.
You believe what you two want to believe.
i'm obviously not good enough for you anymore.

And to be honest,
I'm DONE!

I can't handle all this bullshit,
you telling me that people are pissed off at me,
for shit that I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT.
THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT!

so, i don't know anymore.
Because on top of that,
Kent just happened to leave my life,
i know its only for a little while,
but IT STILL FUCKING HURTS!

But, since you claim to know me so well,
then you would already know that.

but like i said,
unless we figure things out....
I'm done for now.

Because i'm not about to be left behind and forgotten....