you may not know this; yet you may.
But; i'm in love with you.
No, not some little kiddie crush you used to get when you thought someone was cute;
but; love actual, true, love.
I know you don't feel the same way,
but; so badly i wish you did.
The more you talk to me;
the more i talk to you.
The more you tell me all about how you feel.
all about everything;; how you've grown up;;
how you live, how you lived.
Everythingggggg.!!!!!
makes me want to tell you everything,
how much i care about you;
how much you mean to me.
The thought of you with someone else,
kills me.
I hate it.
I wish so terribly that i could tell you everything.
but; i know i can't.
Hell, i can't tell a sole,
just this page and myself.
No one else knows who i am;
or who i'm talking about.
Nothing else really matters to me right now;
but tellin you everything about my feelings.
and how much i honestly am in love with you.
i know i'm not yer age,
i'm 3 years younger.
yer life is just starting;
my childhood is just now ending.
God, how badly i wish i was older.
i wish i was old enough that we could get married and leave,
leave all this,
and start a life of out own.
But; that'll never happen.
You say that we'll get married jokingly,
all the time.
And you laugh; so do i.
But; to be honest;
that thought that you may not be the one that i marry;
TEARS me apart.
just kills me.
i wish that everthing was different,
that i was older.
and everything was different.
But;l wishes don't come true.
atleast not for me;
my wishes are like standing in the desert;
wishing for rain;
it'll never happen;
they'll never come true ever.
i could only be so lucky as to ever have something remotely good/plesant
heppen to me.
but there is nothing i can do about it.
The only few things i want right now;
is for everthing to just get a little bit easier,
and to have you.!
I love you....
(sorry, i don't have the guts to tell you this yet,
i hope when i do; its not to late)
