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WTF !
i never get alone time with her .
she's my best friend .
and you have to fuckin' take over !
shes mine god damnit ,
not yours .
she left you .
get over it .
fuck you !
i'm done !
i can't stand your shit anymore .

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I love you!
your my everything. :D

why do we do it?

life is a matter of living on the edge,
and enjoying it while you can.
that doesn't mean drugs or alcohol,
that means living for your friends,
and family,
and loved ones around you.
The ones that mean the world to you should be appreciated.
we need to let them know,
every minute,
of everyday.
They need to know that we need them,
just as much as they need us.
No matter what.
We go through some hard times,
but we carry on.
We continue as though nothing happened,
or atleast we should.
Things happen,
people change,
and people go in and out of our lives but,
they always remain a part of our hearts.
No matter what we may say...


I LOVE YOU ALL,
no matter what happens.

stupid girl....

why do i do this to myself?
i always get screwed over.
or i fuck things up...
why does he even bother,
he's everything i ever wanted..
and everything i need.
but i just can't keep it together.
i ruin everything.
why am i such a stupid girl...


i'll always be that stupid girl,
that falls in love,
then ends up getting broken in the end..
and it'll ALWAYS be MY fault...


Why am I so stupid..?

also,

if i was still your friend, atleast i wouldn't be mosdt likely to get pregnant.

your no friend of mine..

I'M DONE!

i don't fucking care...

i know you say you don't want to anger me,
or upset me.

but, the fact of the matter is...
you just don't understand.

You don't get what i feel,
or know how i feel.
You honestly don't.

I know i'm never truely in love,
but there is one person i honestly understand that it is possible its love,
even though he's miles away right now...
I've known him, and i've been close to him for 5 years.
My feelings for him are different.
indescribeable.

Who are you to tell me i'm "searching" to hard.
You may know me,
but you don't know how i feel...

i understand you worry,
but to be blatinly honest,
its my life,
i know what i'm doing,
i'm just like my mother,
and we are both Strong, Whole hearted people.
Who have the willpower, and heart to press on.
We aren't hurt too easily...

i know i am, but i get over it fast,
maybe to fast,
but thats just who i am.

Besides, i don't understand how you can say all this,
when half the time, your always with "her".
Its not like you TRY to hang out with me anymore.
Your to busy with her.


I feel like you never have time to spend with me...
in all honesty,
i can't take this shit.


You say we are already not on good terms... why is that.
I've never done SHIT to her.
WTF!
ha.

And to say i was all over her boyfriend,
when in reality thats not the case at all.
Neither of you were there.
And neither of you know what really went on.
And i know that her boyfriend and his bestfriend decide they are gonna make up
a bunch of bullshit about me...
And guess what... i don't fucking care anymore.
You believe what you two want to believe.
i'm obviously not good enough for you anymore.

And to be honest,
I'm DONE!

I can't handle all this bullshit,
you telling me that people are pissed off at me,
for shit that I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT.
THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT!

so, i don't know anymore.
Because on top of that,
Kent just happened to leave my life,
i know its only for a little while,
but IT STILL FUCKING HURTS!

But, since you claim to know me so well,
then you would already know that.

but like i said,
unless we figure things out....
I'm done for now.

Because i'm not about to be left behind and forgotten....

wow, i'm being...

Brutaly Annoyed By This One Kid In My Class!
not gonna mention any names....
Chris!

deciding the bond....

So, the thought that the minor injury to the heart of every person on earth is caused by one person or another.
Mainly that cause is because of one greater value that we feel we "need" to obtain in a life time.
That strong feeling that can take our breath away, or break our hearts in a single pulled away motion.
The heart and mind can be conquered by this one emotion,
and this emotion can also cause great pain and suffering to the human body,
and soul.
should we keep this future lie going,
or end it now to not continue on any further.
Although the things that have come from this,
well, can be of a greater perspective on the overall health of most human being.
Love; its just something that happens.
there are no signs showing its coming,
but when it hits us,
still its hard to read for the first time.
They say that most people only ever truly fall in love once,
but, is that the case?
Or can we all be subjects to this greater being,
the one they call cupid.
Who knows what can be held within the lowering life of a human,
when love is in the air.
shall this be continued,
hmm, i think its fair....

This is Ty

Dear Taylor,

You are an amazing girl. The talks we have on the phone are great we talk about everything and you and I joke around about marriage (your right). I know we are far away from each other age wise but inside were not. You are seeking to find someone and stay with them and starting to learn that it's not as easy as people make it out to be. You struggle with friends, you struggle with relationships, you struggle with family issues but who doesn't? You got a bright future ahead of yourself, and your very pretty inside and out. I enjoy you in my life. I will forever be your Ty bear no matter what. I promise you that you can always talk to me. I enjoy your company:) 

embracing the title

Enough of this greaving,

this pitty amoungst us.

Our lives go on for reasons we will all soon understand.

You may feel that you aren't welcome here,

Or that there isn't a reason that your here,

But, You're wrong.

Everyone has their reason for being.

And Thats Why we were made.

To fulfill destiny for ourselves,

And Help others do the same.

Right about now.

I'm feeling that Greaving Pitty that is among us all,

and i know What the truth is...

But i'm slowing believing the lie.

Because having to feel the shame of not being able to stand up for yourself,

against your own family.

It really has the ability to bring you down.

One peg on the ladder at a time.

But keeping my chin up is the best i can do for now.

Becasue the only Father i have,

is not the father i used to know.

I'm done with his lies,

and hurtful excuses.

I don't care anymore.

But i will press on.

And always rememeber that i do have a place on this earth,

even though i may not fully understand that yet.

When you love...

When you love someone, when you truely love someone, that person becomes a part of you. They're your life, your everything. They change you and inspire you in so many different ways that are indescibeable. Loving someone with all you have is letting go of fear, it is growing up. Because when you love someone Whole-Heartedly, you let go of yourself. To live, is to love. You can't let go of someone you truely care about, because no matter what happens, weather you are together or not, they will be in your heart...always.

life...

is just so wonderfull.

my bestfriend got her lip pierced.


i'm friends with the people i was fightin with for the longest time.

I'm just overall happy with life.

My birthday is coming up.
Its the 26th of January.
I'm gonna be 15.
Wha-Wha-Wha-What.!! :)


Well, i know i haven't posted a blog in a while,
so i decided i would.
And let you know whats been going on. :)

i'll try and keep more in touch. :)

so fer now.............

You are the definition of love. i smile when i think about you. i worry aboutt you even if there isn't anything to worry about. You always manage to take my breath away. Every second i'm without you i'm a mess. You give me the greatest butterflies i've ever felt. your the best thing thats happened to me. you mean the god damn world to me. Everything revolves around you. Yerr all i think about. I don't know what i'd do without you. yer soo good to me and you treat me like an angel. you keep me safe and take the best care of me. yer voice is honey smooth. yer hair is thick but gorgeous. yer eyes can start wars. yer heart beat plays my favorite song. yer smile makes my heart melt. you make a giant smile spread across my face. I couldn't ask for a more loving person to know. i could spend every waking and sleeping moment with you. yer the one that can't be replaced. your my knight in shinning armour. the one that saved this heartbroken girl. the one that turned my dreams into reality. the one that keeps my heart beating. the one that keeps my lungs going. I'll never leave. You mean so much to me.