idk

sometimes I feel like there are burdens peaking over your shoulderwhen you feel you have it all, you don't have shit lately, I have felt betrayed and for this..I have felt not worthy and now I'm fading away slowly and growing distant from everyone and everything!

i can't stop this...

why do i always feel this way,Its an on going feeling that never goes away.My heart skips beats and my breaths go short,I can't stand this feeling anymore.I don't know what to do.I'm worthless and affraid...or at least i feel that way.I can' live like this anymore..This ongoing sadness just keeps bringing me down.i'm never totally happy... not completely.i'm sad alot and i walk around with a fake smile on.i hide my feelings with fake facial emotions and lies about how i feel at the moment.I can't stand feeling this way much longer.Please help me figure out why i can't put a true smile on my face....And make it through the day with out a lie of my true feelings... ):

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i need to see a smile,
i need to see someone with a heart,
I need to see someone caring for someone,
I need to be lifted up,
Before its too late...i'm falling faster and faster everyday.

I can't take much more of this unsettling pain,
This non-stop stomach ache.

Someone show me that time does heal.

And life does go on, so i must live it out.

I really can't see much good in life right now.

I look for god but for some reason he's no where to be found,
Please save me....I need help....
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