alonee..

For some reason, sometimes, i feel so alone in this world, like i'm the only one here. No one else exists, sometimes its one of those feelings you get, when you feel like absolutely no one understands you, not one single person, not one bit of understanding. No one gets you, or no one cares to take the time out to get you, just that nasty gut feeling that sometimes takes days to disolve. I get that feeling often. And it kills, does anyone no the remedy to my left alone feeling.?

just wanna let goo...

The aches and pains now have re-arisen. The feeling that yer heart is in yer stomach, the feeling of that terrible pain that never leaves. The thought of the feelings i brought you, and myself. Hatetred i'm sure is what you feel towards me, and i don't blame you, i feel the same towards myself. I ruined this, i wanted to keep the same feelings we had but with different intentions. But i blew it. I'm sorry. Now is the time for me to fall apart and break away the pieces to my life puzzle that remind me of this terrible mistake i've made. Although it was only for your sake, you were what i meant to save. You don't feel as though thats what i intended. I love You, and even though i sit here shuddering, and trembling about something so miniscule yet enlarged by the fact that you feel so strongly about me, just kills, i'm going to move on, not with another, but as though the fact will never cross my mind again, the fact that i hurt you deeply. i love you. and i'm sorry.